Love Poem: Parent's Regrets
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Written by: Sheila Van Zant

Parent's Regrets

Sometimes I sit and wonder why no ones allowed to turn back time? No quarter given to right their wrongs, forgiveness for the things they've done; Worked too hard, grew up too fast, and all that gave me was a past; no credit given for deeds I've done; critically examined by everyone; Forever judged by one mistake, It's not the only one I made; I tried and failed to make them see, the judged mistake was so tiny; If they could see inside my mind, they'd be afraid of what they'd find; What lurks beneath cloaked in disguise, trapped inside by watchful eyes; No matter how deep the grudge, I am myself my own worst judge; For we all hide within ourselves, cloaked in shadow the sins we weld; But when our time is finally near, we realize our own worst fear. my mind alone is where I'll be, so dark and lonely no one can see; It's my mind alone I have to fear; my sins enlarged beyond compare; You find yourself like all the rest, failing to credit good deeds past; Trapped inside your minds own eye, you watch as you begin to die. Forgetting right, remembering wrong, I focus now on those I've harmed; I want a chance to take it back, and give you the life you should have had; I am sorry I was not there, selfish me how much I cared; You both grew just grew up too fast, before I knew it my life was past; Now I sit all alone, wondering where my life has gone; Was I so selfish? my sins so great? My soul cries out my heart still shakes; Will you forgive my being late, or the times I could not wait?; So my precious little one; now I am the vulnerable one; At your mercy I beg you please; just one more day is all I need; I want a chance to make it right, not just your day but entire life; I'd take it back if I could, and finish what was left undone; Cloak of guilt hard to shed; accountable to all who cared; Sword of judgment in our hands; if we fail to make amends; So please let me turn back the time and be at peace in my own mind.