Once Upon a Hundredth Time Pt 1
Once Upon A Time-
For now the hundredth time it seems.
A ray of hope shines through-
And it illuminates my dreams.
The fear arises quickly-
As it builds up in my chest
I pause and wonder now-
What separates him from the rest?
Am I obliviously blinded-
By his sweet words, and his smile?
Or is this genuinity-
A gem that's made my Hell worth while?
I think back to those days-
Where distanced love was all we knew.
And I reminisce in the feelings-
And the emotions, bright and new.
We bonded over laughter-
And over countless conversations.
We both knew from the start- our love need not an explanation.
I cannot help, however-
But to wonder what collapsed.
How did we find such a darkness-
With such a mesmerizing past?
I guess to better understand-
I must retrace our steps.
I'll dig to find the roots of-
Both our passions and regrets.
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From the moment that I realized-
We were soulmates, intertwined
Traced to moments, things had shifted-
To the heartaches we'd find.
The way that he conseptualized-
And challenged my perceptions..
Inspired inward exploration-
Paving paths in new directions.
As though he cracked a code of sorts-
Breaking boundaries in my mind.
Freeing me from shackles-
With keys impossible to find.
I can't quite understand it-
But it's safe for me to say
He instilled in me self purpose.
And actually made me want to stay.
It's not possible to illustrate-
A life of longing for the end.
Which now evolved to a desire-
To finally let my life begin.
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