On My Mind
What is it about love that makes us laugh unpredictably, cry uncontrollably and dance unendingly .
The happy times, they seem so far away..
but I know they were just yesterday..
Yesterday when I held your hand in mine
And felt your warm breath in my ear...
Where, tell me please...where and when did we leave there?
Too hard to let go
Too scared to make a change
But something had to give..
We were going to make or break
It was up to us to choose.
But what happens when its the latter you choose?
Where do the emotions go
where does love and memories hide
What does your mind and your heart do,
What do they do to get over you?
Getting back to loving me
But the thoughts of you, they linger sometimes
The words I never said
The things I hoped would grow
They all stir inside
Turning everything in my soul
Have we lost it forever
A faint past, only left for reminiscing.
Could it be that it is all lost forevermore
Never to be remembered and just left to be no more
Sometimes I think if it were meant to be
You would somehow, come along and find me
Tell me how much you love me,
Just like the hundred times before
But this time say it slowly
As I try to love you rightly
There is so much I couldn't see
So much I took for granted
So much selfishness, too much wanting to be
Not enough accepting as is and just allowing it all to be
I wanted you to be someone you weren't
and in some ways you expected the same from me
We were loving but changing
Caring, tearing and still surviving
Living with no air,
barely enough space to be fair
So lets be honest
I did things and you did things
Can we come clean?
Just make it so perhaps the slate can have a gleam
Say the things that you wanted to
And I'll say mine
Don't hold it back
There's no reason to lie
Honesty, Trust and Respect
You had it for all me
Or so you made it seem
but I lost it for you...
And couldn't bear to tell you so
Can it be recaptured, only time will tell..
My heart feels so twisted sometimes, is it because of your smile?
P.S. - On my mind
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