Love Poem: Nothing Without You

Nothing Without You

drop by drop it's dripping away
time elapses like a rolling tide
fast, strong and sudden
it will shove you on left or right
above or down under
only the tide knows where
above all 
only God knows where
where is right or wrong
which one is better or worse
and He knows sure which is the best for us
faith... 
enduring selfless faith
surrendering to Him 
all fears, anxieties and tears
all that there is..
to His words that I cling..
in the wee hours that am alone
only to Him I utter the words
sometimes I can't anymore even
say the words
just the tears rolling on my cheeks
that will tell
how am I feeling inside
my insides are bursting
my thoughts are breaking
all i have are pleas
pleas that I hope soon it will be heard
soon it will be answered
I do not want to question
I do not want to even doubt
I do not even want to blame
I do not even want to curse
All I do is to hold on
Hang on.. hang on..
so tired, so tired..
long enduring nights where no one I can talk but Him
yet each day I wake up
still.. still I stand up..
resume like nothing really bothers me
I smile the brightest smile they say
but my eyes can not hide 
so many longings inside
I am trying to understand
but it seems understanding isn't enough
patience... much patience...
and really strength...
strength to hang on
strength to carry on
strength to keep fighting
but through it all
this prevails
I still love you my God
and will still be here
Thanking you 
for what you have done
and to what You will still do 
For I am forever Yours
And all of these comes from You
I am nothing without You.

(C) Olive ELoisa
1:33am
May 23, 2014