No Exit Memories
As I took the road to yesterday,
your saddened face appeared,
showing me the man you lived with
was not the place where you belonged.
New experiences give us insight into ourselves.
They also open new worlds to new anxieties,
but we can’t go on thinking that clouds are heaven
and that heaven is a sanctuary for a pained heart.
That heavenly road derailed me
from my perceived need to go home again to be with you.
I know you’re not there, gone to where I can’t find you,
where I dare not follow.
My yesterday’s roads have dead ended and will not bring us together.
It is futile to lament that which wasn’t to be.
We had our chance to find the golden chalice,
but God chose a different path for you.
My mind knows
you've gone to some other place,
unknown place where I'm not
leaving my heart aching with sadness and anguish.
Eternity will cry,
forever will seem endless,
ultimately, extinguishing the light in my heart,
but unburdening my mind
shoving me toward my destiny.
I have moved on from yesterday’s history,
to find the days are the same and he nights excruciating
the rain still falls and makes mud, the sun shines bright blinding me
and the moon still cowers behind my nightmares.
I remember our yesterdays and my heart overflowing with joy
but suddenly last night in an innocuous dream
I became aware yesterday’s roads are just memories,
memories leading to no exits.
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