Nice To Meet You, I Miss You
My chest hurts, this is new. It's not painful in that way it just aches.
My eyes burn, this feeling I know. The tears are forming
I think I know what's happening, I know what to call this feeling but that cant be right... can it?
You'd think I'm crazy, and I'd agree with you. Oh God I'm laughing at my stupidity.
Are you laughing too? Where are you? What are you doing now? Am I even a passing thought?
There is nothing about this i would say is normal. But what in this life ever is?
Am i around too much? Or not there enough and you'll forget me?
Stop it no more questions now. You'll only make yourself worse i tell myself.
Hows the weather where you are? WHAT DID I JUST TELL MYSELF?!
OK, OK calm down, play it cool. If they want to talk they'll message me first.
Wait! They just said my name?? Wow, I wasn't expecting that, now I'm shaking.
I spend my day thinking of a great way to say hi, got nothing! Keep trying later.
This is crazy, so crazy. This feeling can't be it doesn't make sense, well except maybe you.
The first time I saw the smile, I was there and I don't know about you but I've seen a lot and I know a smile that warms up everything around them. Your smile is a sun it brightens my day... too much?
Doesn't change anything though, I'm sure you're used to it. I'm sure you're over it. So whats one more random face to say something they think they know?
I hope you feel the same, it will hurt if you don't, would hurt a lot.
But it won't kill me, I'm made of stronger stuff than being paper thin... please don't say no.
No stop it! Read the room read the emotions in the air, you're a smart person you'll know if its right to do it.
Maybe I'll get doves and play their favorite song on the guitar when I do it... I can feel my reflection staring judgments at me in the mirror. OK, OK I won't do that. Let's keep going as we are now.
I hope this ache doesn't get worse and I hope I don't have too many hot tears in my eyes. But I kind of like this feeling its been so long since the last time.
Oh theres one final thing I want to say to you before I go away to come back another day.
"Nice to meet you, I miss you"
... you're an idiot what does that even mean? You're so uncool you're- they're laughing, they think its a joke.
Then I meant what I said.
(This is for anyone who becomes silly and argue with their own emotions)
(You're all special and just know I love you)
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