Love Poem: Never We

Never We

Forever I find myself amused by the person you are,
Forever I find myself lost in thoughts of you,
And forever I seek knowing you even more
The first I saw you I was cardiac arrhythmic 
My heart pulled by gravity I felt myself vulnerable
Having loved before I feared even talking to you for I believed I'd mess it up
you came through, 
One too many times and I knew I had to say a word
A word became an ocean of pure honesty and truth
there I was loving you
I told you first that I had fallen in love
You always had an ideal woman in your head and sadly I wasn't
We spoke on the phone, 
text and called one another till you finally disappeared
another heartache to deal with
Having had many of those I redirected my feelings
not saying a word I kept it in
Learning to redirect this love was yet another ache
Settled for last just to have you in my life
I still hope for a chance with you
still I wait
Unknowingly the love ran even deeper
As a friend I sure do pause and freeze the times we spend together
Your voice still tickles me
Your laugh still calms me down
and like the first we met, 
My heart still moonwalks and my mind blown
Wish I had you with me on this trip
Sailing the waters of the Atlantic with the love I so have to sustain us both
but again,
Sadly I'm not who you want to trip with
I guess it's never we