Never Fall In Love
Never Fall in Love
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I made up my mind
to never fall in love again.
It’s not because I’m incapable of love,
I’m just unwilling to tolerate the pain.
A pain so excruciating
that it leaves me vulnerable and unable to stand.
A pain that leaves me helpless
and dependant on a man.
I’ll no longer allow my heart to be ruled
by a love so strong that it blinds me,
leaving me unable to distinguish between
what’s real and a fantasy.
I refuse to give anyone the power over me
to cause tears to fall from my eyes,
especially when all I’ll receive in return
is sorry excuses and lies.
I once fell in love with someone I trusted
who said he loved me too.
He said that he’d honor and cherish me all my days
and he promised me that he would be true.
How can a man just disrespect the woman
in whom he could always confide?
How can a man just throw away a marriage of nine years
just because he thought the grass was greener on the other side?
I did everything I could do to make our union work,
even allowing him to drastically change me.
I lost my innocence in so many ways that even now
when I look in the mirror, I don’t recognize who it is that I see.
This love that I had caused me to be so wound up,
tight like the string on a yo-yo.
This loved had me bouncing up and down
from emotional high to emotional low.
So, I’ve made up my mind
to never ever fall in love again.
I’ve decided to save myself from the anguish
and prevent my heart from feeling the pain.
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