My Lost Friend
Where have you been, where have you gone
it is been a long time, as if it were yesterday
time goes by but it is still today
that feeling, that bond, it doesn't just go away
time stays still and it is still today
why did you have to go away?
just when we were growing up
finally learning what life and friends were all about
hitting the streets and showing out, what we were all about
that's when things ended, never saw you again
people thought we were no longer friends
not understanding what it means to go away
cannot function without, also cannot dictate what this is all about
for you see, my friend, when you went away
most underestimated what that meant
not just a loss, but a major life event
one that is endless torment
I know where you went, my best friend
but the heart is always meant to mend
but it won't, so this must be the end
I cannot say goodbye, can't let you go
heart won't let me, and who am I
to be one, to even try
for I want to cry, desire to cry
want to be sad, that is my right
want to be with you, think of you every night
I hate to say the words
dealing with death is too hard
it has truly left me scarred
Pop Pop, Grandma, Mom, and even you
its an endless feeling of being blue
being without you
its tough to deal
impossible to heal
emotions still raw
no one truly knows how I feel
That's ok though, as my friend you'll see
Someday, there's a place for me
for all of us, be together again
and that will be the end of the pain
James R. Lutz
Free verse, 7-21-2019
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