Love Poem: My List

My List

I don't know how to do this
I can't keep pretending
I can't keep smiling
I want you so much
I can't love you and be her friend
waiting, always waiting
I can't do this again.
Why, why couldn't I be first for once?
I just wish
you would come and
take me away.

I can't stand this
(leave me alone)
save me
(I don't need saving.)