My Friendship In a Box
She used to be my best friend
Something I never thought could change
There for each other through everything
Life without her seems so strange
No favor too big
No feeling too small
Best of friends for 40 years
I thought we’d survived it all.
But she walked away without a word
My heart smashed against the rocks
And now all I have are tainted memories and
My friendship in a box.
Photos spanning all those years,
100 s of cards and letters of affection
All packed away along with the hurt
Too painful to even mention
I resist the temptation to recall my faith
For fear I might once again believe
In a friendship so enduring and safe
Recollection could only serve to deceive
I can only conclude that it was all a lie
So tired of always wondering why
It just sits on a shelf collecting dust
Like my heart it needs no locks
The desire to ever trust again
is as sealed away as
My friendship in a box.
So rare a thing
To love someone and accept them
For exactly who they are
To love them despite their flaws;
the apparent and hidden scars
I was in awe
Of what we had
What a fool to feel so secure
Don’t ever want to be best friends again
There’s no way to make it pure.
It sits on a shelf collecting dust
Like my heart it needs no locks
The desire to ever trust again
is as sealed away as
My friendship in a box.
No explanation in these many years
No apology or accusation
Just a dismissal of all I thought to be true
Like it was a figment of my imagination
But I have the proof of undying love and trust
Despite the lesson in hard knocks
It’s all packed away with my bitter heart
My friendship in a box.
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