My Envy Ablaze
I always covet what I do not own
Despite the Laws that are written in stone.
I envy what I cannot obtain.
To those who possess, I wish them pain...
I want to simply banish this incursion-
Those thoughts of dark and bitter aversion.
Even with whom I share my life,
I battle thoughts of internal strife.
I want to love without despising,
Pointless it seems to suppress the rising
Thoughts of loathing that betrays
My mind, consumed by envy ablaze.
I try and come so far for you,
Only to sorely fail.
My affection for you and everyone
has become all but stale.
For you I labored without end
My time and love
I would forever lend.
But because of the feelings
I could not convey
He took your arm,
and you both strolled away.
When I see them together,
my heart turns to lead.
Needless to say,
I wish him dead.
I stand outward to the ocean,
feeling the sun's rays,
But deep down within my heart
Still lies my envy ablaze.
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