Love Poem: My Apology

My Apology

I can't find the words to express what I feel  Anger? Confusion? 
Everyday something new pops into my head
Constantly searching and waiting, but am I the one to blame? 
I assumed you would always stay but I guess you got tired of me pushing you 
away 
I wonder how it would be if I said yes but actually I don't know if you really tried 
your best 
I wonder how it would be if you said no but I suppose we will never know 
The memories are enough to tell our story but maybe that is my own way of trying 
to ease the pain and please you because I am to blame 
I hope to see you and tell you all about that, then in return you would embrace me 
with the most powerful kiss and I now it would be straight bliss 
Just like the seasons, for that moment you were my only reason
 So thank you in advance for being the one to take that chance, which left me with 
the greatest experience.