Mixed Up Feelings For a Mixed Up World
Im sitting down just wondering why im here,
I think about so much and it suddenly becomes clear,
I live for the pain, the struggles, the torment of it all,
Though it hurts so much can i really make that call?,
I watch as nature ends so much around me,
But it's us humans that are killing nature why cant you see?,
I search and i search and i search some more,
I want a real woman, not some trashy little whore,
Why do i get mixed up with these cold hearted girls,
Then my babies come out and shes got me by the curls,
It kills me inside, i know that shes a liar,
Yet our flame went out long ago, forever gone, no more fire,
I was on a roll my mind was getting good,
Then i get knocked back down and i land in the hood,
I need a real lover that can satisfy my needs,
Not just any girl for me to spread my seeds,
So im back at square one with less in my pocket,
And so i wait and stay till i can say stuff it,
Im not gonna stay celebate like i have before,
Im a man, i got needs, but im no man whore,
Im happy to play just one on one with you,
Just tell me what you need, do you want me too?
This stuff goes around and around in my head,
All at the same time my pain needs to be bled,
We all have our struggles including me and you,
Yet they underestimate me, they dont have a clue
I could fix this mess my knives could be my cure,
But if i left this world how could i remain pure,
My son is my world i love him to death,
But the pain is so real i wish i took my last breathe,
This stuff messes with my head, i need some release,
So i blaze up and trip out to keep away from the disease,
Reality gets sacrificed just way too often,
So i smoke and i smoke i cant stop coughin,
My senses are diminishing sometimes i can hardly hear
I know you dont get it thats why i want you so near
I can see some light at the end of this cold dark tunnel
Or is it just us thats caught in a funnel,
Im scared to lose someone as beautiful as you,
Your heart and your mind why cant you see it too,
My brother is my tower my pillar of strength,
I cant tell him but he would go to whatever length,
He had a beautiful baby girl to his wife,
Im not jealous but i do wish for that life,
For now yet again ive become single,
I just need for someone to give me that tingle,
I had enough struggle i was not spoon fed,
Yet the pain for decades remains in my head,
Once all is done and all is said,
Ill be alone, just me in my bed
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