Missing Pieces
Growing up different, growing up sad
I was always watching this one kid who would make my day glad
I'd go home and tell my mom that he was cute
I'd go home and share with my mom my treasured loot
He's always been in my classes --- since day one
I remember telling my mom once --- she had a gorgeous son!
Over the years that passed, every day his gorgeous face I witnessed
However, to this day, I don't believe from me he's ever been kissed
Always too shy to talk --- but be okay with meeting between school rooms
Back before I was way too innocent to be interested in witches and brooms
But something always about this kid constantly brightened my strife
Infatuated about the childish dreams of one day becoming a big part of his life
The very few words --- I can't quite remember
But his name and face stayed with me and kept me warm all those Decembers
Years and years and years went by I no longer saw your face
But in my heart and head, the memory of you I embraced
Moved on and had a family with someone out of mind & sight
But for so many years I held onto you with a faded light
Something like eleven or twelve we noticed where we stood
But I moved and left you --- apparently it wasn't for good!
Found you something like 11-15 years later now
Moved on but held onto something powerful --- please don't ask me how!
You still never left my heart --- now as it comes back to me in visions & waves
The memory of you --- and the love that I should have a bit longer saved
The boy that I watched for so many years --- the boy I should have devoted to
Grows stronger as the days go by and the years that blew past and just flew
Lately as I fit the missing pieces of my life to make sense of what's true
It clearly makes perfect sense to me --- I should have devoted myself to you...
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