Marionette
You take and you take
with your need and your greed
then you get annoyed when i am in need.
you couldn't care less, you just watch me bleed.
it's planting, in me, a resentment seed.
Then i walk around guilty, swallowing tears
cause you twist it and mash it and feed on my fears
of being someone that nobody wants
the idea eats at me, toys with me, teases and taunts
So i tell you exactly the way that i feel
and you roil and you rage and you yell and i reel
it's all the abuse without any hits
but it's painful and cruel, and i'm damaged by it.
You know that i don't like to make you upset
so you scheme and you scream and you place all your bets
on the fact that i'll cave and i'll cower and cry,
and next time i have feelings i'll keep them inside.
On the outside I smile, and say I forgive
while I look for an exit.
this is no way to live.
~NMG
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