Love Poem: Mad About Schooling
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Written by: Gerald Dillenbeck

Mad About Schooling

Why do I feel like school visits
are usually a waste of time,
and mental health visits,
too,
or is it visiting in general
that bothers me?

What I will see
and smell
and hear
and touch
is only what you feel safe to show me.

Your best professional face
when you are in charge of your environment
of yourself,
and all is as it would best be
in your safe and healthy presence.

Yet what I need to see
is how this place,
these people,
this teacher or therapist or mentor,
or would-be agape lover,
responds 
to my child's anger and fear,
to my own anger about how they have
and have not 
been treated in our past,
to your own angers about your past,
fears about life's future
for yourself
for your kids,
for these other caregivers.

How will you respond
the 99th time my daughter shits on herself
then laughs while you wipe her nasty stinky ass,
berated by her own memories
of past such humiliations?
Hope you too might find humor
in your dialectic co-arising therapeutic intent,
your Positive Psychology presence
in this moment of your empathy
with her reverse-bipolar lack of sympathy
for you.

Just how good might it feel
to give a smack on the ass
of all angry-fearfilled,
chronically stressed
and sleep deprived,
too-often critical-event PTSD
co-victims of human life's unkind
and in-humane culture and history?

How do you think that choice
would not hurt both of you,
all of us,
where you could choose to live fully
in this loving moment
of empathic Right-brained eco-consciousness,
synergetic multisystemic practice
with full-health optimization intent
when and where most needed
and neglected
and abused.

Abuse of your professional love
and competent promise,
reminds of angers about life's inhumane injustice,
depressing fears of death's too soon
peaceful resonance.

Visiting schools for therapeutic Present life
has little to reveal about where we PastAnger-FutureFear live
24/7.