Love Sucks
I like you
did I really say that out loud?
she did not look at me
walking in silence, no eye contact
As we approached her yard she motion with her hand to stop
and she ran into her house slamming the door
being thirteen was awkward
twelve was better, girls were still yucky then
She avoided me, I was over her my first crush
days went by and I was walking home from school
the alley was my shortcut
out of nowhere hands grabbed me
hit me, slapped me, punched me and knock me down
it was Billy sixteen in love with her, she was young for him
He kicked me in the stomach as I lied and spit on me
warned me if I even thought of her
He would kill me, funny I was believing him right then
as he walked away I heard myself saying out loud
You dumb bastard jealous much, you better run
Billy came back and kicked me repeatedly in the stomach
I had nothing to say when he left the second time
too busy puking
Snook into the house, washed up in the bathroom
went into my bedroom, locked the door, shut the window
Locked it too, and lied on my back staring at the ceiling
said the F word just once but long and slow
Made me feel somewhat better, not, alone lyng in my bed
frozen stiff body aching and my heart confused
So this is love
Love sucks!
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