Love I Was Missing
Most children are born without a care in the world
I was born to people who made me scared of the world
Parents preferred alcohol so I was underweight and under built
Took into foster care because a bottle of vodka was more important to them than giving me a bottle of milk
Too young to look after myself and my parents didn't care to look after me and left me unkempt
I was 3 years of age when I got taken into care, weak on the outside, but I must have had some inside strength
My dad didn't want to know me because I was too young for him to share a beer with
He left me broken, but it was up to me to repair my pieces
I got to see him 6 times a year, I'd talk about nothing except football and Hip-Hop to hide my pain
Cristiano Ronaldo this and Eminem that, my idols is what they became
I was facing my struggles, but even through the dirt I still had a clean heart
I slowly learned that bottled up thoughts are just unseen scars
I was craving the love my parents never gave me, so I had to find something to fill the void
So many dark days, but I figured some days could still be enjoyed
I was still too broken to feel good about myself or discover self love
Going from girl to girl probably wasn't healthy but it sure felt good
It was always less than love, more than sex, but deeper than pleasure
I had fun getting the girl, like a pirate seeking treasure
I appreciated feeling loved and wanted, more than the sleeping together
But I was too hurt to fully love, so some other guy will have to be the girls forever
Using girls to heal wounds they never caused
I was dating them for a few weeks at a max
I never listened when people told me I needed to relax
But life comes at you fast and there's no button to pause
I'm the worst person to come to for girl advice when I used to use girls as a vice
I always used the excuse that I was broken and young but that doesn't make it right
If I could go back I'd try to do things better and different
I'll admit that I was wrong for going from girl to girl to replace the love I was missing
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