Love Poem: letter to Karin -

letter to Karin -

so long ago, I found you, sweet
    and yet, our tome is incomplete
      through all the recollections, us
  a query that still haunts me, thus:

what are those things I do not know
    I've done, to make you hate me so?
      I've searched my mind for most a life
  for what I worked to bring you strife …

and as I sift thoughts past, thereof
    those mem'ries only breathe of love
      the moments, many, spent with you
  midst yearning's tender rendezvous

yet, I'm within your heart and head
    the brute you feel were better dead
      I wonder, do you wait those words
  of my swift passing? And once heard …

will then not come the smallest start
    of longings, deep within your heart
      for all sweet, tender moments, ours
  the petals of those thornless flowers …

that bloomed so many bygone years
    and grew from love, with not a tear
      that you have somehow made a sin
  oh, how did such crimes e’er begin?

the dearest love you've turned awry
    and I, naught but the question, why?
      how, when I leave, my final thought
  will be, what is this crime I wrought …

that took my dearest love from me?
    oh pray, could you please help me see?
      can you not spare one crumb this bread
  before your first true love ... is dead?