Knowing
I don’t know how to ask the questions I am thinking.
I don’t know how to approach you without feeling like I am shrinking.
Wanting to run away and never have to face this again.
But, knowing this is going to strengthen me as a man.
I know I am stubborn and full of foolish thoughts as a child.
I know I can be immature and not think before I speak aloud.
Wanting to run to you where no arms are waiting for me.
But, knowing I am still feeling through this pain that I never thought would be.
I can’t seem to make it past your face on some days.
I can’t seem to find the right paths and ways.
Wanting to run out on my own.
But, knowing I want to come right back to your home.
I will find that God has a new plan for my life.
I will pray for that plan to include you as my wife.
Wanting to know now how that could take place
But, knowing his plan may not include your face.
I want to make it to where you are within yourself.
I want to make peace with the past and place it on the shelf.
Wanting to do and doing seem so far apart.
But, knowing the temptation of making you part of my art.
I am now placing all these thoughts into God’s hands.
I am now going to turn a new leaf and find out God’s new plans.
Wanting to hear it direct word for word
But, knowing I just need to trust in the Lord.
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