I'Ll Wait For You
Each day I desire to feel your warm touch and loving affection.
Only to be satisfied if I'm yours, and your love's my possession.
There may be rejection, but my love is here to stay.
I always look forward to seeing you when I wake up each day.
I've always been misguided by the concept of love.
In the past, I was never pleased with what I thought it was.
Often, I would wonder why my life felt so obsolete.
Which led me searching for answers, not knowing what questions to seek.
All my efforts and hopes of being truly loved became just a fantasy.
Resulting in me questioning my very own sanity.
I soon came to terms that love was purely a pursuit that I would never gain.
And the concept of love is nothing but a fictious mind game.
Though it was only in divine timing that you finally appeared in my life.
At the very first meeting, you had me smittened as we felt our hearts entwine.
You showed me real love with no need for convincing.
Our love seemed to already have true meaning.
Even though, underneath, I was still trying to conquer the mind altering demons.
And in the midst of this I caused you pain and your love for me had weakened.
How quickly disappointing that the greatest melody can began to play offbeat.
As if the devil is beating the drums in a strings only symphony.
Eventually, it drowned out my ears to only hear the pounding of drums.
And in that trance, not realizing I could no longer hear my loved ones.
How selfish of me to think you'd be there waiting on my return.
When I wouldn't listen to you then when you had your cause for concerns.
Despite my betrayal, I stand here today to tell you I'll wait for your love as long at it takes.
And I'll always be sorry for all my foolish mistakes.
And if I never get to feel your love again before I die,
Then just know that the hope of it is what kept me alive.
The belief of us gave me the strength to carry on each day.
And your presence alone was reason enough to stay.
It saddens me to think that I won't be able to see you forever.
The day death departs us, will be the day my heart will be severed.
And if we ever have to say goodbye before death shall come,
Just know I'm somewhere, still loving you with each rising sun.
Dedicated To: Buddy
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