If Only
I wish I was the one
but I know I am not
it is not me that makes you cry
tears of despair or tears of joy
thoughts of me
do not keep you awake each night
I am not the first one you think of
when you awake in the early hours
I cannot shower you in kisses
touch your cheek, wrap my arms around you
and promise you forever
I can't give you long smouldering looks
then wink to make you laugh
or say something corny and make you cringe
My impending visits won't set your heart a flutter
my silence or my leaving,
just an inconsequential stutter
to the day that the one returns
and sweeps you off your feet
leaving me behind
to sit
and watch
and weep
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