If Only
If only you had asked me, just once
to stay, to hold on, to try.
I would have fought the doubts,
swallowed the pain,
let love bleed me dry.
Just a word, a plea, even hollow, even small
Even a little whisper that barely meant at all
But you never spoke, you let me go
And, that perhaps, still hurts the most.
I wish your fingers had clung to mine,
shaking, refusing to break away.
I wish your voice had cracked on "stay"
but wishes mean nothing today.
You let me go like i was nothing,
Like i was weightless on your hands.
Not a whisper, not a tremor,
no desperate plea to make me stand.
The pain of leaving shattered me,
but staying in silence burned much worse.
Still, I would have endured it all
every sleepless night, every curse.
Only if you had asked me once..
Now the voices haunt me,
whispering truths I cannot bear
that your love was shallow, words were hollow,
that you didn’t really care.
And though you were the greatest thing
that ever happened in my days,
I find myself still wishing now,
that we had never crossed our ways.
— 05/03/2025
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