Love Poem: If Ever (My Secret Sin)
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Written by: Jerry Golden

If Ever (My Secret Sin)

If ever I should 
Race for Hell 
Swear on my grave with palms begging to be nailed
If ever I should 
Hope for the best, enter my home as a guest 
Mention I love you, and simply forget to think of you
If ever I should
Now why should I pray when I got arms to bare 
Alarms to scare, violence to share 
Live this life by a strict sense of principles
Wash the sins from my flesh and hope my past is rinseable 
Why am I so eager to constantly please 
Help those that lost their feet, back to their knees 
Give others both my hands, help them stand 
When selfishness is my main feature as a man 
And the truth is, I can't help but think of you
Grip your hands and whisper I love you 
Must we discuss how I lost your trust 
Look into a crystal ball
And vision a future that doesn't consist of the two of us
Gun in palms, rehearsing a common verse from Psalms 
No father figure, holding his daughter in arms
Place her on satin pillows, given a good night charm
In all hopes loves relaxes on her covers and keeps her warm
I surrender take me to his cross and nail me
Scream in blasphemy as these demons trail me 
Mistakes keep calling me back
Heartaches keep me falling on tracks
And I know my soul is shallow 
Forgive it being constantly in battle