Icu
i harbor my hope in
the spaces between your fingers. like light
falling slowly and then
all at once, upon docked ship straining for sea, upon moonlit water wishing
it was more like the others wishing
it could see the stars.
you looked down
as i cried,
and i smiled because i
knew the world was watching me fall apart.
did you know i had become it all for you,
let searing universes
burn beneath my skin,
how long have i only been
built from your memories
i wouldn’t know. swallow and
carry on, heave it over your shoulder, act like nothing at all, make yourself insignificant.
this world will never cherish
naive grins with crooked teeth.
instead i befriend
gentle small sliver of the moon,
sputtering satellite deciding she is
pretty enough to be like the others,
lonely star sailors that form shapes only
we thought to name.
strange chattering night,
i feel my youth in my bones,
will you stand next to me one last time and
watch the sky fall
crashing burning breathing have you ever felt so alive?
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