Love Poem: I Wonder

I Wonder

Sometimes I wonder if you ever think of loving me
Loving a man like me, loving a man who has know ideal who you are
Sometimes in your words I see thousand of hatred in every single thing
that came out of your mouth
I wonder if what you say to me are love words
or goodbye words
Because you were mine first love
I wonder If I really know the real meaning of love
When I speak to you
I wonder if this is how you will continue with me
I wonder if you ever thought of spending the rest of your life with me
Sometimes I wonder if you are meant for me
Sometimes I wonder If this is how life is
with a woman you love
Sometimes I see you kissing another guy
but you always tell me not to complain because your heart belong to me 
Alone and no one else
Sometimes I wonder if I was a fool
Sometimes I thought of calling the love doctor
But I wonder why the sometimes never came
Sometimes I wonder how procrastination came to exist 
In my head
That's when I know i will keep telling myself i will break up with her one day 
but that day never came  
Until my life becomes control by emotional procrastination.