Love Poem: I Will Make the Right Choice (Don'T Feel Like Praying Today)

I Will Make the Right Choice (Don'T Feel Like Praying Today)

I don’t feel like praying for Rodney,
But I will keep doing it.
I don’t feel he will ever accept you.
I feel like I’m wasting my time,
Everything but You and me,
Is on his mind.
He wants nice things,
But he won’t open his heart,
To the one who will give them
To him. He’s not dumb.
He’s very smart. Right now,
He’s outsmarting himself.
Looking for all the wrong  ways,
To gain wealth. 
You already gave it to him.
We were totally the same.
Not feeling like we got,
Enough attention,
From parents and siblings,
Because God gave us everything,
We needed and much more,
To survive. He just won’t open,
His eyes to see that he is the star,
Of the family tree. Because God gave him,
The tools to rule within his gifting.
 Maybe one day, he will forgive,
Parents and siblings.
And accept that God paved 
The way for His wonderful life
That is ahead of him.
I don’t know why I still have the urge,
To pray for Rodney.
After all of the horrible things he did to me:
Stole my computer, kept my car out all night long,
Had this illiterate chick calling my phone,
As a result causing all kinds of confusion,
 In my home. Calling me everyday to get,
Him out of jail, stressing me so badly
That we lost our baby, not coming home
To grieve with me. I don’t deserve,
 Such mistreatment, But God still 
Wants me to pray for this dude.
I should have a negative attitude,
Toward him. I still don’t feel like 
Praying for him, but I am doing 
What God wants. Maybe Rodney,
Will do so too. So I choose like 
He has to make a voice to lift 
My voice, and pray for change,
In his heart one day.