Love Poem: I Surrender
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Written by: Courtney Ivie

I Surrender

It'll never work
Not logically
They say
And they are sure to remind
They are sure to define
Their ideas 
And push them—unwanted—against me.

It's not real 
They say
Just a fleeting 
Biological response
Where I'm me
And you're the stimuli
And they are sure to account
They are sure to make up 
For all of nature’s ordeals.
- -
Don't hurt me
Not again
You say
Just a simple recap
Of the year before 
And I feel the guilt burn 
In my tummy.

Don't leave me
You say
Or I won't survive
This time
And I picture you left
Without comfort
I picture 
My best friend
And my lover.
- -
Shh. 
I say
Be quiet
Close your mouths
And learn to listen. 
This feeling is not
Science nor fiction
It's the crafting 
Of two souls
With ageless wisdom. 

Mera munda
I say
Look at me
And his eyes
Demand my attention
Our gaze trapped by
Adoration
His feelings
My only passion
And everyone must see
That my heart's been his
Across lifetimes.

I surrender.

And my fate has been written
Before time.

I surrender.

And I cannot control
What was never mine.

I surrender.