I Stay
Emptiness
That is what has been filled inside of me these days
A second feels like a minute and then eternity feels short
I'm slapping on a smile, I really am good at it
Nevertheless, is it really needed
I am hungry for more of his eyes, his smile, his giggles but weren't they slowly taking away mine
So I stay
This time, I, stay
I am willing to go beyond my comfort although he is the very comfort that I crave
But I want HIM to reach out
I can shatter people's dreams, become their nightmare, be the villainess for decades to gain his love
But for once I want HIM to reach out
So I can give him this tight warm hug that I've been secretly keeping for days together
So I can utter the 3 words, 8 letters that I've been dying to tell him
So I can fill my thoughts with how his day goes by so there's no space for my own, atleast then he'll be on my mind every millisecond
Calm down baby
Open your damn eyes baby
Look at you
Look at you through me
The way you have blown my world and turned my life upside down
The way everything seems possible to me when it's with you
The way I am ready to give life to trust you even a little bit more
But you just want the eyelashes on your cheeks and surrender to the dark disease
Come to me once and I'll join you everyday
Take a step for me and I'll fly for you
Speak once by my side and I'll sing of you forever
HEAR, LISTEN, UNDERSTAND, SEE
What I am without you
The very eyes you loved lost its light
The very nose you loved is now crooked
The very body you loved is now untouched
The very person you loved is falling apart
I had enough of me trying but not enough of you
Toxic, Weird, Stupid, Outdated? Yeah, Maybe
But love, darling
Afterall, love is what I know
If this is the way I know to do so then be it but I want to do it more
I want to give you more
See you more
Hug you more
Kiss you more
And I want to love you, not more, but Most
But at what cost babe
What is the point if my love is not returned exactly by the person that I Love
See, this is exactly what I can't let happen
I can't cheat my love with your lies
I can't bury them in an innocent grave only for you to come dig it deeper each day
I can't let it grow into something else
I can't let it grow apart from me
Because that is when I'll lose you from me
If my love is not my love anymore, I'll Die
So for my love, I stay
I do not chase, I stay
For my love to be treated like it deserves to be, I stay
If not, my love for you will be questioned by myself
So, my Love, I stay
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