Love Poem: I Should Go
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Written by: Sandy Schermerhorn

I Should Go

I should go
So down deep I know
I should just leave you alone
I should once again
Control my feelings and pretend
Push them so far down and let all this end
Bury everything so that again I'll forget
Wish away what I've been going through and lose sight
I did it before right
Hell what's a few more regrets
Go ahead do it what's the use
seems like I really now have the excuse
To try to move on
From your life be gone
To hold my head high
And carry on
Problem is I did it before
I did walk through 
And I shut the door
Then all the memories, regrets, cherished moments, and yes the few fights
Came rushing back in my life
It all made my heart take flight
So here I am back to you
I did it for so long
Believed that in your life is where I didn't belong
But I soon found out I was wrong
I started searching for you
Each and every chance I had
Then when it fell through yet again
I would feel so sad
But fate stepped in
You called saying you received my letter
So I believed that things all around me would turn out better
Eventually I told you
What I had really been needing to say
That my feelings for you
Has never gone completely away
Guess you wish you had not ever made that call
Cause now I haven't been able
To reach you at all
Quite some time has now gone by
Since my confession
You would think I've learned my lesson
I've been told being in love
Can make you do things
You would never normally think of
Have you ever known me to really 
Pour my heart out to so many in this way
Never quite like this
So listen, really listen to me
When I say
I can't stop thinking of you all the time
Every single day
And in every single way
Yes I know
I should walk on by, damn it run like 
I've done some kind of crime
But don't you see I can't
Not this time
I have to keep taking the chance
On the hope for romance
No matter how it hurts or why
No matter just how much I'll cry
It's not that easy anymore
I can't walk back through that door
I know we can't have
Exactly what we had before
Because we were so young
And didn't know or understand our own selves
Let alone the other
Back then our lives as we have now come to know them
Had only just begun
But now what we could have is a greater love
You know the one
We've both been in search of
Where you close your eyes and thank God above
I really should go
The way I see it though
Is I have no choice this time
No I don't
I should leave you alone
But I can't, damn it I won't