I Remember
(My Best Friend)
I remember... you and I,
playing in the sun, our toes in the sand.
You were eight and I was seven,
holding hands on the beach,
two boys wrestling in the surf.
I remember... things came easy for you
in school you excelled,
good grades and, oh, so popular
Everyone wanted to sit by you,
but you chose to sit by me.
I remember... my best friend,
growing up with me,
forever beside me when I needed you.
Laughing together as we grew,
always there for one another.
I remember... in our teens,
looking for girls, we found a few,
thrills for you, awkward times for me.
Then looking for love, you found yours,
but then things changed.
I remember... when you married,
she wasn't your first but
I liked her too, another friend,
and I was glad that she loved you,
because I understood.
I remember... your second child,
both so beautiful, something I couldn't give you.
Smiling, you said you loved her and I turned away
then looking at me with serious face you said,
we'll find someone for you, if only you knew.
I remember... so much envy,
but not of you, of her
she owned my world, love, happiness and you.
It wasn't my choice to feel this way
but it's who I am.
I remember... when I changed,
or did I? Who can say,
perhaps I've always been this way.
Things so simple, then, are re-arranged.
My feelings for you were never the same.
... and so my best friend I will remember this day
my tears are for you and the love we can never share
for I could never explain and you could never understand,
so I think it best, if only for you,
from your life, I slowly fade away.
11/21/15
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