Love Poem: I Ran Away From Love In Distrust
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Written by: Andrew Crisci

I Ran Away From Love In Distrust

I ran away from love in distrust
and decided not to live in guilt,
but without the felt desire
the days weren't lived to the fullest;
and the unsolved fears stayed with me
leaving the doubts
and uncertainties
a lover could deeply feel...
when all chances were available.

Who can blame me
for doing certain things
when everybody was doing 
them too and since love touched
an unbeliever like me
and showed how simple it could
have been to have trusted
you a bit more instead;
is it difficult to accept lies
and not start doubting?

Being easy-going has
changed my image
and all honest smiles;
it's no shame to let privilege
using the loveliest part
that one has for acting smart.

I ran away from love in distrust
and decided not to live in guilt;
I ran away from love in distrust
so discouraged and uncertain,
and by letting that happen
I refused to fulfill sensations
and I gave myself the dullest desperation
while everyone else was having fun,
but everybody stopped there to ponder mistakes
wondering where to go from there when every
reason had its own unpredictability. 

Who can blame me for doing certain things
when everybody was doing them, too?
Being silly and naive worries you a lot,
should I change and please you instead?

I ran away from love in distrust,
not realizing that pain was all my fault;
I ran away in distrust and lost all for my stupidity
what else would I have done to own you completely?