I miss you so much that I am sick I fear forgetting your face will stick I fear growing old not remembering I wish your spirit is at rest and not lingering What did you think of me in your last moment I will never know if I was bliss or torment Why do I suffer so about you I don’t recall if I ever made you glow It was so hard admitting how much I loved You when you left me for above I wasn’t allowed to go to your funeral But my love for you will be eternal Take me by the hand when I find hollow ground The wind is a whisper in my ear just make the sound If I saw you now how would I explain my pain Would you just laugh at me, jeer with disdain I get a feeling in my stomach that cringes It makes me rip doors off by the hinges