I Gave Up
Giving up heaven to embrace hell
Perhaps I could have learned to love him with time
He took care of me and I never doubted his motives
I was the one in control
I knew he would love me forever
But for all the life in me I could not return that love
I left the safety of the familiar to wander into the unknown
Here I question every action and word uttered
He controls me now and I’m helpless against it
I’m terrified he’ll move on and I’ll be left alone and broken
Shattered and exposed
Naked and alienated
I gave up a constant for an inconsistency
I gave up power for complete submission
But at least in this hell
I’ll love for a moment
Even when that love isn’t returned
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