Love Poem: I Dreamed
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Written by: Heather Kennelly

I Dreamed

He was in my dreams
Everything You had in mind for me
Not my choices, awkward, backwards, shy
The truth in his eyes, heart- You are there
For me!?  I thought the day would never be
Never this easy, how could it be
Missions, music, kids, You, what else
…Too quiet, I didn’t know him at all
The Kiss-
My heart now set aside where no one else can reach
One instant’s joy, pure, heaven sent
Laughing, crying, filling me, I remember
Still today as if it were yesterday
It must be the Lord’s hand on my heart

I can’t question and torture my self wondering
I can’t pray and wonder what is happening

He was in my dreams
Real and in front of me
But not to be

He didn’t know

Wasn’t the man

The man I dream of will love the Lord, of course
But in this world will fight for me
Desire me, long for me as I for him
Waiting for me, will recognize me and see me 
Will look at me intensely, loving me
Knowing my soul without words
Knowing my heart by my eyes
Knowing my needs with his heart
Not clueless and wasting my time

So why do I still believe?
The hope won’t die, still attached
To the one I’d like to leave behind
The kiss washes over me threatening
To hold me in that dream. Not even that
Spectacular in itself, but hooking me
For what it was, a dream for blessing
From the Lord, a Godly Man, a gift for me
Attached to one who was not the one
Not the one to love me like I dreamed.
Yet I believed.

And he hangs on wanting me, a friend
Why Lord? Tell him “Use your head!
Her friendship is reserved for true blue
Girls, confiding, trusting, leaning on each other
Girls who will not fall in love with her
Or her with them.  Never hurt her!
Always understand and know and feel
Her heart, her pain, her joy
They’ve been there, on another road
They have the same hopes and dreams- not you.
Your future wife would not like, a friend
Of yours like that.  Don’t you see
Crossing wires and misplaced hearts
Loyalties of the wrong role
Chances for heartache and loss
You must stay clear of any possible wrong!”

My heart aches to think that you will leave
All my dreams ripped away from me
And as I think they were based on nothing real
My heart objects, still feeling what it feels
Beyond words, the unrequited love
Beyond reason, tears dripped, time spent, gone
Alone, dear Lord, hear me and save
Help me move on and leave this lost
Give me strength to say again “I dream”