I can't compare
I hold my heart behind locked doors,
Worn and bruised from love before.
Each scar it bears, a whispered name,
Each beat a flicker wrapped in flame.
I’ve stitched this heart too many times,
With trembling hands and fraying lines,
Each patch a whisper from the past,
Each crack a vow that didn’t last.
I’ve stood in storms with open chest,
Hoping love would do the rest,
But every time, the winds grew cold,
And left me lonelier and old.
I’ve tasted bliss and drowned in lies,
Watched promises turn into goodbyes.
Now every smile feels like a test,
And trust won't rise within my chest.
Your touch is kind, your eyes sincere,
But still, I flinch when you come near.
Not for lack of want or need,
But fear that love will make me bleed.
I ache to dive, to fall, to feel,
But wonder if this wound can heal.
For every time I dared to try,
I learned how dreams always die.
So if I seem a bit withdrawn,
Or ghost you when the light feels wrong,
Please know that I do care
I'm just afraid I can't compare
Afraid of heights love makes me climb,
Afraid of running out of time.
Yet still, I stand here, trembling true…
Scared to love
but drawn to you.
I’m tired of hope, of starting new,
Of trusting hearts that don’t stay true,
My soul is worn, my light is thin…
I won't know how to heal again.
One more fall, and I won’t rise
No phoenix flames, no brave disguise.
Just ashes where I used to be…
This is why I can't trust me.
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