Love Poem: I Am Not Who I Am
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Written by: Evelyn Rose

I Am Not Who I Am

i don't believe in anything.
i don't believe in a god.
i don't believe in real love.
i don't believe everyone has a soul mate.
i don't believe in the power of prayer.
i don't believe everyone receives karma.
i don't believe in dharma
   or reincarnation
   or any sort of afterlife.
i don't believe people meet for a reason.
i don't believe all is fair.
i don't believe in war.
i don't believe that people have good intentions.
i don't believe words.
i don't believe in promises.
i don't believe in polygamy.
i don't believe in marriage.
i don't believe in true peace.
i don't believe in death.
i don't believe nutrition labels.
i don't believe in hate.
i don't believe people who don't show emotion.
i don't believe in the church.
i don't believe the media.
i don't believe that anyone can stay forever.
i don't believe in abandoning loved ones,
   although, at times
i don't believe in staying in places i don't feel needed.
i don't believe anyone could romantically be with only me.
i don't believe drug addicts.
i don't believe boys want more than sex.
i don't believe in our government.
i don't believe there is just one satan.
i don't believe i can see the good in everyone anymore.
i don't believe my own emotions.
i don't believe cannabis is bad for my health.
i don't believe alcoholics.
i don't believe in friends that turn into snakes at night.
i don't believe in keeping quiet.
i don't believe in love at first sight.
i don't believe actors.
i don't believe my generation will ever get to experience
   the tenderness of simplicity,
   or the feeling of contentment with just one lover.
i don't believe there was ever a time
   where relationships weren't plagued with infidelity.
i don't believe in candy.
i don't believe cats.
i don't believe in eating animals.
i don't believe all men are rats.
i don't believe i'll make it to forty.
i don't believe sadness is weakness.
i don't believe everyone has a purpose.
sometimes, i don't even believe i am human at all.
   i am not who i am.
i don't believe in anything.