I Almost Wrote a Poem
“I need you
and dream of you
while I try to
drink you away”
I almost wrote a poem
that began like this
(many years ago)
to express my
unrequited infatuation
for a certain
beguiling & baffling
woman.
I almost wrote a poem
that rambled on
unpoetically about
all the tormented
feelings & dark ideas
that poisoned
my already warped mind.
But instead—
I drowned my sorrows
and dragged my
sorrowful sardonic self
through lowly jobs & lofty ideas
like a Kafkaesque Sisyphus
--and eructed corrosive prose
parodying frenemies
as friends became enemies
and I found myself
submerged in a private
cold war with the world
(during the Cold War)
in the torrid, torpid
River City where
the alienated artisans
ate their own.
Maybe someday
in the distant future (2020s?)
if I’m still around
if the world is still around…
I’ll actually write
this forgettable poem
and wish I hadn’t.
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