I Actually Liked You
I actually liked you
But there's nothing I can do,
We could never work out
Until you learn to love you
When I first met you
I thought you were cute
But then you started changing,
I guess you thought it was cool
To be Mr. Tough Guy
With a bad attitude
Just arrogant. Cocky.
Reckless and rude.
I actually liked you
But I see you need time
You have too many faces
You need to stop trying
That demon insecurity
How it plays with the mind
If you stayed the same
Everything would be fine
I liked who you were
And what I saw inside
You radiated light
Something in you just shined
I actually liked you
But you don't shine anymore
My vision is much clearer
Then it ever was before
I see that you're a counterfeit
With a big open sore
Still wounded from old trauma
That you try to ignore
I recognize the red flags
And chalk on the floor
I know if there's yellow tape,
Then don't open the door
I actually liked you
But I'm not playing this game
This relationship is toxic
I need to refrain
Once things got official
Nothing was the same
You turned into a monster
What goes on in your brain?
You're possessive and mean
With a temper untamed,
Viscous with a big ego
Sensibility untrained
I actually liked you
But you bring me to tears
All the stress and the struggle
After all these years
Being stuck here with you
Is the worst of my fears
I should have heeded advice
That I got from my peers
Listening to you
Is pain in my ears
Because verbal abuse
Is all that I hear
I actually liked you
But apologies are due
You wasted my time
I thought you were true
Yeah, that's what I thought
About the person I thought I knew
But now that I'm close,
Everything I'm seeing is new
A split personality,
Hot and cold. Not cute
A double lifestyle,
All lies, it's no use
I actually liked you
But there's nothing I can do
We could never work out
Until you learn to love you
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