Hopes and Dreams That Someday May Come
For awhile now I've felt nothing
but torture and torment throughout my mind and heart
because as of now we are still apart
can't sleep at night and don't want to face the day
yet the remembrance of you never goes away
I feel like I'm losing my mind
see sometimes the good in me is so hard to find
still family and friends are so kind
even thought I've been gone from all them for a bit
we thank God we're just meant to fit
they are there when I need to talk
and give me a shoulder to cry on
when things seem out of reach
some tell me deep profound messages that hit me really hard like
stoop searching for all of us and search for yourself
or they tell me
your not crazy it just sounds like your still in love and he made you the happiest
you've ever been able to be you also need the questions you have answered and
we don't have them you have to find him
I believe with you back in my life things would be better
and I would once again be the person I once was and long to be again
but then the harsh reality set in and even though
I want to see you desperately we may not be able to find each other
again and it's this I have to face but I don't want to
or I have to consider that maybe
you won't feel the same way as I do
even though I feel so much down deep in my heart
you are in love with me to
I know all this sounds crazy that's what I've been trying to say
but it's on overwhelming feeling I've had for a long time and this
will not go away
I've never felt this way about anyone or for anyone else
before or after you
I really do try to remember having patience is the key to happiness
but I need to know where is the damn door
or that all things come to those who wait
how much longer do I have to keep waiting
it's been hell on me cause I've been waiting so damn long
I've prayed to God to end my life for these reasons and more
I just can't do it myself
yet I wake each morning to face yet another day
right now I can no longer control
what's happening around me and don't know how to deal with it
if seeing you again is not in the game plan for us
what I wish for you more than anything is
that you are happy and well
that's all I've ever wanted you to be
and I hope all your dreams have and keep coming true
maybe someday the rest of mine will to
because if you didn't already get it
I'm still in love with you
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