Love Poem: Holding Back
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Written by: Sonali Thakur

Holding Back

Even when I know you
you are not with me dude
I shower myself over you ;A million times more,
even when you tell me the time will pass
I stay there capturing every moment with my heart,
even though you say you dont get attached
 holding yourself acting out to be too hard.

I realized MY feelings are not the culprit 
true intensions don’t  have no reasons to hold back.
Even your stabbing me back doesnt affect
 the things inbuilt  in us doesn’t disaapear so fast
Coz goodness got no reason to make excuses
the past and what you have learnt all through those abuses
can not make you a less human ,AND a less attached.

You gotta learn that ,You gotta live 
you gotta feel bad ,once you understand 
how much on you have I believed.
How long will you tell me I am emphasizing way too far
Pitying on my feelings wont get you too: too far.

Even when you say you cant trust on people
what I am tryinna tell is trust your feelings
Your kindness ,An effort ,A day less than just to deal on.
Coz goodness got no reasons to make excuses 
Remember you are far more than what you think you believe in.

There are boundaries to chase ,Crashing hurt to experience 
you cant just wear a parachute and just keep walking.

So I am an Infinite ,giving doesn’t deceive me 
And a Zero you think you are
Inside out you have distinguished your walls,
Even though you say you don`t get attached
 Holding Back is the forced delay from
 The nutshell that you are making to break too hard.