Hither and Thither
Everyday I see him and he sees me
He's the Danny to my Sandy, why can't I be?
I fall for him more everyday
And the fall is hard, I feel the pain
He's my sunshine on a dark and humdrum day
But the apocalypse on a bright and mirthful day
My heart belongs to him
But his lay locked in the hands of another
To me, he is my world
Yet I, am but another speck of dust among the rest of them
They say you'll find love one day, I ask when?
If not me, then her
If not you, then who?
Silently sitting, searching
This discrete yearning
Here I am, waiting for you
There you are, never on cue
I think, maybe know, that you are the one
I am but a planet and you are my sun.
These cuts, these slits, the scars on my arms
Please tell me that I'm worth it
Make me believe it
Tell me I'm beautiful
Like no one has before
The bruises on my fat stomach,
The slashes across my gigantic thighs,
The tear stains that run down my tired face
These internal dents you could help me erase
These words that I write for you,
I hope you know that they're true
For I call you hither and yet you go thither
These empty thoughts, in my mind they whisper,
That I will never be loved,
And of course not by you
To say I believe them,
Would that affidavit be true?
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