Love Poem: Hessa
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Written by: Rachna Chawla

Hessa

He’s more myself than I am
Whatever our souls are made of 
His and mine are the same 
There are many things that can keep you in a relationship
Fear of being alone
Fear  of disrupting the arrangement of your life
A decision to settle for something’s that’s okay
Because you don’t know if you could get any better
Or maybe there’s
The irrational belief that it will get better
Even if you know he wont change
Here’s to the night I stood alone,
To the night I cried so hard that I couldn't breathe
To the night I prayed for him to comeback to me
And of course to the night he never looked back
Love isn't about how many months 
or years that you've been together 
Its about being able to see the light inside
Of the person who knows nothing but darkness
I feel like I’m drowning and 
Its hard to keep myself above the water,
Especially when I’m fighting against the current 
To save him rather than myself
I used to think that when people fell in love
They just landed where they landed
And had no choice in the matter afterword
And maybe that’s the true of beginnings
But its not true of this, now
I fell in love with him
But I just don’t stay with him by default
As if there’s no one else available to me
I stay with him because I choose to,
Everyday I wake up, everyday that we fight
Or lie to each other or disappoint each other
I choose him over and over again
And he chooses me
At the end of it all
He would be my perfect disaster and 
I would be his ever after.