Love Poem: Hell and Back
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Written by: Ashley Gleason

Hell and Back

Hell and back again 

Lyrics sung with a sullen note 
With lingering anxiety building in my throat
I feel that I cannot speak and must go 
Unable to keep pushing this down 
My Sunday laughter now a nervous frown 
When I thought this was dead and buried somehow

One Sunday started with stolen looks and flirtation
Love at first sight, notes passed on bar tops with anticipation
Soon turned to fiery, unwavering passion 
We left the car running, in Love we were crashing

One night our eyes, lips and bodies met 
Our hands and souls searching for something neither had quite found yet  
And a true felt romance then lingered 
Never to forget, best friends in a way
But one with a debt that had yet to be paid

Differences in adult wants led him astray
Never wanting to disappoint or leave 
But unable to have or raise a family 

My heart shattered as the bullet did his skull
And I failed to tell him on our last phone call 
But I never did stop Loving Him at all 
Nothing done could erase what we shared 

Although I had to move on 
For the flashbacks turned to nightmares 
And my heart and head could no longer cope 
With losing not only a Love but all Hope
In myself or kind soul to pick up the pieces left 
Was it all a dream?  
I wish I truly could answer  "yes"
But it's burned in my heart and my mind all the same
And now comes back from time to time reminding me of the pain
Leaving no words for me to use to explain
How I once went to Hell at 25 
And came back again