Heather Huff
I remember the email
Asking about seeing stars
I casually remarked no
Callous, not realizing the scars
But many years later
While pondering my past life
Realized so many mistakes
Again cutting like a knife
Heather I'm so so sorry
I was so young and naive
I didn't know much back then
And past hurts I can't unweave
There were also many pressures
Peer and immaturity
That shouldn't have been
Was my insecurity
I wish I had known better
I wish back then I knew more
Things could have been different
A different outcome explore
I'm so sorry I hurt you
I'm sorry you had to cry
I'm sorry your heart had to break
And all the scars they apply
I look back and really wish
That these times could be redone
I could make the right decisions
It'd be perfect for everyone
But time is an evil bandit
Who steals many precious things
Things that are irreplaceable
Regardless of the pain it brings
Now I don't know where you are
And my searches all incomplete
The regret I am left with
My apology met with defeat
Wanted to admit there were stars
And how special you were to me
You deserved way more then I gave
You needed to be loved now I see
So here is my apology
But you deserve so much more
Wish I could fix things broken
But it is too late I'm sure
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