Love Poem: He Was My First

He Was My First

HE WAS MY FIRST

back in my senior year, when I first fell in love..
we were far from each other, by phone talks and messages... 
nine long months passed of pure sharing, couldn't believe... 
I fell for a guy, I had never seen personally.. 
we exchanged letters.. 
we talked two, three until wee hours on phone.. 
he let's me fall asleep without hanging the phone... 
after about a year we met, can't deny I still remember how it was.. 
I blushed on seeing him.. 
we held hands and talked refreshing the months we never saw one another.. 
We continued for about two years... 
however, we fell out, we broke up..
as he turned to another girl... 
he broke my heart as I set him free.. 
I wonder how much more will my heart break.. 
I don't even know if my heart still knows what love is... 
deep down, I still believe... 
but part of me is not trusting anymore.. 
part of me is lost... 
who will find me and be brave to take me out? 
from that lost... 
who will be? 
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