Have You Ever
Have You Ever
Had dreams about your
Past so vivid and real
You woke up and
Thought you were back there
Have You Ever
Panicked at the thought
Of Setting Foot Outside
Even Though You Know That
You're Perfectly Safe
Have You Ever
Felt Your Heart Start Racing
So Bad I Felt Like It
Skipped A Beat
You Start To Hyperventilate
All Because A Single
Tear Streaked Down Your
Cheek
Have You Ever
Felt So Much Pain
Yet You Don't Dare Show It
Because It's Your Duty
To Be Strong For Everyone Else
Have You Ever
Had Holes In Your Memory
From Something You Can't Control
Remembering All The Bad Things
Wishing You Could Remember
All The Good
And Forget The Bad
Have You Ever
Lost So Many Loved Ones
You Find It Difficult To
Open Your Heart To Anyone New At Least
I Know I'm Not Alone There
Have You Ever
Watched The Light Go Out
In Someone's Eyes
Sat With Them So
They Wouldn't Be Alone
When They Died
Have You Ever
Had A Suicide Pact With Your Best Friends
Then Broke It When
One Of Them
Successfully Brings Their Life
To An End
Then Years Later
You Find The Other One
Has Followed Suit
And You're Left All Alone
Wondering Why
What Could I Have Done
Did I Do Something Wrong
Picking Up The Pieces
And Planning The Funeral
On Your Own
Have You Ever
Felt Like You Just Wanted
To Run And Hide
Escape From Reality
Even If It Had To Be In
Your Own Mind
Have You Ever
Been Called A Freak Of Nature
So Many Times
You Started Believing It To Be True
Have You Ever
It Sounds Like A Drinking Game
Yet It's Not
And I Don't Drink
However If It
Were And I Did
The Cards Would Be Stacked Against Me
And I Would Be Well Past
Tuned
Because Everything On Here
Has Been Part Of My Life
Some Past
A Lot Present
Hopefully Not Future
By: Jean Bonella
March 25 2023
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