Love Poem: Harboring Hate
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Written by: J.W. Earnings

Harboring Hate

Verse 1: Hating can hurt...taking off my shirt 
Fading can make you feel like dirt 
Sometimes, I feel beautiful and high as a kite
Other days, I feel like a cow patty on the ground...you love me despite 
Intimidated...threatened to the extreme
You're the diamond in the cave that I claim with high self-esteem
I dance oh so gaily and sing on the stage, spotlight all agleam 

Pre-chorus: Harboring this shameful fool inside me
I shout out the loathing envious words from my lips precariously 
Reckless and acting ridiculous all the same
Ooh? Here comes the shame that I can't tame 

Chorus: It gets hard, I know
Just go with your flow
Glow on, ocean...pretty tree, come on and grow 
Is this morbid scene over?
Are you with some other?
Am I still your rebellious, vermillion rose?
Do you still have the silly urges to tickle my nose or toes?
I need your sympathy and adoration right now
Sweeten me with your honey...somehow...
I'm Bittersweet Butter to your taste buds...as scrumptious as can be
Cut me into slices to toss into the pan...don't be afraid to fire me up and set me free from captivity
Harboring hate
Loving the debate 
Between chaos and commotion
And peace and emotion, a perplexed ocean 

Verse 2: God knows I've tried
Crazy in love, rumor has it that you're taken!
I didn't like that you lied 
What have you done to me? I'm forsaken!
Baby, I'm everything that you don't have
Baby, you're the best thing you never had
All you do is smile it away and laugh that laugh
Talk that talk like nothing happened between us...now, who's bad?
Bad to the bone...
But oh so alone 
Admired from afar
Zooming off like a car
Freedom is just a block away, around the corner really!
To be honest, let me make my own decisions, for I'm not dumb, but smart strangely!

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Verse 3: I wish I had a sexy person next to me,
Wiping away the tears I've wept freely 
You have a part of me...most of what I was - a tattered and torn toy
You don't have all of me yet...I'm a heartbroken, bipolar boy 
You're with me or without me, but I don't mind
I'll find someone unlike you or like you, these tears I shed make me blind
Wake me up from the other side of the bed
Drenched in the dread that blankets me like the dirt, caked on the dead
Young love bleeds
Young minds feeds
On wisdom and foolish endeavors and lusts
On feelings and logical reasonings that bursts into thousands of shards...each shard eventually rusts 
Reduced to dust like my high hopes had a while back 
Sidetracked for no reason that's rational, but genuine and sweet just a crack 

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Verse 4: Photograph of wrath scorches my smudged soul 
The pain of your healing rain left me frozen in place as a whole
Eyes do shine when you are sincerely mine 
Eyes do dim when you're with, you know, him 
You were my yummy cheese and wine 
You were my blissful melody and whim 
Wrap your lips on my own and let our tongues collide
Drag your feet on the slippery floor of shattered dignity and I'm on disdain's ride  
Love mended my heart and stitched it in one piece...please put you and I at perfect ease
Again, you saved me from the dark that's been a nasty little tease
The shadows consume loneliness just like we do in times of trouble 
So entitled to your love from above...walking on our filthy, yet clean rubble 

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Verse 5: Not everything is black and white, there are many shades of gray
Not everything is black and white, there are many shades of gray
When I am away and fighting the good fight, 
I'll be putting a stop to harboring hate 
When the day is murdered by the nostalgic night,
Your insults stabbed me like countless swords that won't open the gate 
To everlasting serenity in the near future
Find me a cure and please help me endure...
Jealous...Your heart is innocent and clearly pure 
The pages of us together 
Floats away like a feather 
Lighten up the heavy load 
You are my haven and abode 
You are the road to success in the long run 
Trust me, you should let some sun in...then, let the fun begin, hun 
Happy to say that I'm Held Close...we are friends and foes 
Eyes meet and feet entangle the moment they greet 
I'm passionate poetry and your prideful prose...
Anything goes...how neat! I was trouble from the beginning, but I'm kinda discreet 
Remember me like the month of November 
Or I'll grow cold and frail in the middle of December 
Summertime happiness and wintertime sadness 
They both push and pull at us, but we're on the same rowdy buss, we're making excellent progress!
Not everything is black and white, there are many shades of gray
Not everything is sky and ocean, there are in betweens like wilderness and city...differences and similarities are shared like night and day