Hannah
oh, my darling
Hannah
you and your
mama have gone
far away
i am so afraid
i will never see
your joyous face again;
nor will i get to
look at your precious
hannah hair all twisted
up in little pig tails.
my heart breaks
for you; you have
reminded me
of what is important
in life and what
is not.
i cry my sweetheart
i cry out for you
and your mama.
my heart is stolen
once again.
your innocence is
so precious and
never ending.
i know you were
sent by God not for
us to claim you but
he is sharing you with
our family.
sometimes i think i
cannot go on; i
miss you so much.
i comfort myself
knowing that God
always has his reasons
you became our lives
my darling, innocent
beautiful child
i knew i would get hurt
if i loved you as much
as i knew i would....
but with complete
capitulation i loved
you and i love you
forever and my last
breath.
i love you without
regret. i cherish every
second with you.
i thank your mama for
coming home and letting
me back into her life.
God is taking care of
all of us, one step
at a time. i thank him
for the happiness and
time i have been given..
i want and need to
hold you and your
mama both.
i want to
to watch how you
and your
mama look
as you are
swinging on her
hip as you walk
up the sidewalk
you both smile
at me with those
big smiles. i have
that picture embedded
in my mind.
i stare at the pictures
that i took. i tried
to comfort your aunt
because she feels
and hurts so much too.
i say to her.."hannah
is not "our baby"... ...
our job is to love her
and her mama.
that is what we are
good at.
i want all three of my
darling girls to come
back.....i need for you
all to be here together
so i can spoil you
as much as i am able.
i love you sweet baby.
i love you my mindy.
and you my darling rebel
kimberly, you would be
so stunned if you could
see what my heart thinks
about you both. i wish you
could see in yourself
what i see in you.
so, now two of my three
darlings are gone
my darling, darling
precious jewels, you make
me so rich.
i will always be a constant
companion to each of you
every day and night ...so
fear not. no matter,... God is
on a mission with me, so i
promise...
you will know you are
in my heart of love with
every single breath
i take.........
every single one
by janetta
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